Things that we never understand . . .

Today at noon we got some news that brought us to our knees. That is often the position that we find ourselves in whenever life throws something at us that we cannot handle ourselves, isn't it? Dr. Shaw called Tyler at his office and had to explain to him that our baby did not have any heart tones today on the sonogram. Tyler then left his office and came to my work to tell me. I knew when I saw him walk through the door that something was wrong. It's just that news like that is never supposed to happen to YOU, is it? There are so many scenerios that have been so much worse for many of our readers, so I am certainly not having a pity party tonight. I am just really, really sad, that's all. I didn't lose a baby full term or lose a child after years of raising it - my sorrow could never compare to that. But after having a baby taken from you that you have been carrying, I now understand how deep love runs, even within the womb. It's so very true that we love our children from the moment of conception, and that there is nothing stronger than the love of a parent for their child. It is in this understanding that I find some comfort this evening as well, because I know that my Father loves me unconditionally as one of His children! How fortunate we are to have such a loving God. I have to trust in Him that there is a reason for this, and that even though we may never understand, this is all part of His ultimate plan. Perhaps Molly is right. She says that God wanted our baby so that Grandma Irene could hold it. We lost Grandma in early September this year. She thought that it was nice that Grandma Irene would be the first person that would get to hold our new baby. So do I.

For tonight, I just want to say THANK YOU for all of the kinds words that have been sent to us today, and for all of the prayers for our family. The girls asked why our phone had rang so much tonight, and I told them because we are so lucky to have so many people who love us. So we thank each of you for being a part of our lives and for being so supportive whenever we need it most. Each of you have a special place in our hearts!